Today, Sunday, August 03, 2008. Its suppose to be a rest day. But im far from resting and relaxing. Theres just so much to be done. Just been out for a couple of days, and yet i dont feel like revitalized. i still feel so low, tired, depressed, and lazy. its been months since i’m in this state. im just so fed up and jaded, and i hate it. I used to be so naive yet smart. Now i feel so old and used up.
i thought i have this bipolar personality. Reviewing my blogs, for sometime, im so happy and contended. And then i would be so angry and depressed. its an altering emotion, which happens in months before it passes. but this time, my discomfort and discontentment lasted so long, for more that a year now. I guess i have to change the situation that i am currently at. have a change of mind, and have a change of heart. i needed that badly.
im tired. Tired of putting smile on my face when infact all that i wanted to do is kick everyone’s ass. im tired of being kind and patient and strong. I have to go and leave. But to where?
I wanted t change. A change i cannot afford to make.
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