tonying

We fear them, abhor them, despise and curse them. It’s the devil, the bad ones.  They that lure in the dark, the vile, the rude, the rake. For some it’s a real entity, a real being. For some it’s a symbolism, a representation of all things and people that are bad and ugly. A constant reminder of how flawed this world is.

But what if there comes a day that evil does not exist anymore? What if everything has suddenly turned good and perfect? No more wars, no more fighting, no more pain, no more suffering. How nice our world will be. And how so boring.

How are we to know how warm and comforting light is when we have not seen the dark? How are we to appreciate sweet when we don’t know what bitter tastes like? How are we to love a person that is good, when we haven’t known someone bad?

Cruel, wicked, and disgusting people are what we thought to be evil. They cause us pain, failure, and misery. We always wish these kind of people will just simply vaporize. But sometimes these are the people that teaches us some very important lessons in life. They are the ones that steps on us, yells on us, degrade us. And yet they are also the same people that challenges us to be stronger, makes us reveal the fighter in all of us. They serve as our barometer, we want to be better than them, yet not being the evil that they are. We don’t want to be like them, we want to be someone else, but definitely better.

I believe in the necessary evil. I have met a lot of their kind in my life, and they never cease to amuse me. I have never been content by just abhorring them, looking at them. I explore their being. It has never been easy dealing with evil ones, but its definitely challenging, physically, mentally, morally, spiritually. They sometimes rock my very core, bend my faith, twist my philosophy. I will never be the man that I am now if I have not known them.

Sometimes I mimic evil. When it’s a necessity, I challenge people around me. I engage in war, I spit fire, I hit hard, I put people in misery. I have to be bad just so I can make a person better. Though I meant to hurt them, Eventually they’ll be thankful for what I’ve done. I’m harsh, fearless and insensitive at times but a lot of people still love me and sees me differently. After all, hindi masarap ang pakbit kung walang ampalya.