tonying

I  have 10 goldfish, 3 red cap orandas and 7 shubunkins. They are the most beautiful goldfish, my orandas are glowing red, fins and tails are long. When they swim they look like fairies floating in mid air. My shubunkins are of the finest breed. Nice colors. Its tail are long and tip of tails are round, as if they were cut by scissors. These fishes have been my companion for quite sometime. I smile everytime I enter my home because they greet me, they go to the corner of my aquarium, swim so enthusiastically. And to think they only do that when I’m around. My fishes knew me. I loved my fishes. And today I watched they die.

            I came to a phase just this week. Suddenly, I had all the energy to reorganize my home, my office, and my room. For 3 straight days I  turned my place upside down, cleaning, washing, dusting everything. I have a severe allergy to dust mites, and I haven’t had an attack for weeks. Could barely breathe when it hits me and I don’t want it to happen again ever. My aquarium haven’t been cleaned for months. So I had it cleaned. And in the process my fishes got killed.

            In my solitude, these fishes consoled me. In my loneliness, they somewhat cheered me up. I don’t like dogs, they stink. And I hate cats, their meows annoy me, and they do have a lot of fur. So I opt to my cockatiels, parakeets, shubunkins and orandas. I do love them. And now I’m in grief. Some people would even find it silly that I get so affected by my loss. After all, they were just some fish. But they were my fish. And I loved them.